WEDDiNG BliSS!♥

This dress, was definitely a stressful process, I like to think you could never tell but the sleeves were added to it, We ordered extra fabric that didn't come in until not even two weeks before I was beginning to think I would be dressLESS for my own wedding! I'm not sure too many people would appreciate that..!

Got Milk?

Married life, it's great. But its about to get even better!
We've spent the last couple months...ever since we were married living
in a little guest house where we feed cows, wake up to cows, and wake up to
them several times every night and if it's not the cows, it's the dang refrigerator.
Funny thing is we were generously given two fridges by family members which could easily replace this annoying thing but time after time we've put it off and continuously let it get to us. Anyways, our good news..It is a 75% sure thing that we will be in a house we happened to fall in love with by the end of January. Maybe I'm just so excited because we've had 22 offers in and this is the most hope we've had all along! And the best house we've seen so far. Can anyone say 22 is the new luckyyy number?!

Full Time...

Let me just tell you words can't even begin to explain how excited I am for these next couple weeks. Reason number one SCHOOL. It has this way of stressing me out beyond belief and ohhh yea, keeping me up till 4 am..ha hence the time.

& of course I cant forget Christmas! It will be mine and Brandon's first Christmas together and I'm very anxious for it and the fun we are able to have with the family. We decided we'll skip presents this year and embrace the true meaning of Christmas & eachother.

We close on our first hous the 30th..So that's Christmas enough for us:)

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Here's something worth writing about, as I'm sure few are wondering--But the word is out TO PRETTY MUCH EVERYONE!

I'm Engaged, To the most wonderful, perfect, amazing guy I have ever met in my life and I couldn't be happier :) Bet you didn't see that one coming!;)

Well here's how this all went down..I planned this vacation to San Diego with my parents and my younger brother and sister, kinda last minute so Brandon( eventhough i begged and bribed him to come)..."Couldn't get off work" ya...RIGHT! Little did I know he was sitting at home planning out things for this little surprise he had planned.

I was in Cali..hanging out with my mom shopping and just relaxing on the beach and when Brandon drove 6 hours there and happened to make it in the room next to me I even shared a few phone calls with him..Little did I know we also shared a wall, haha how he pulls these things off i have no idea!

But Saturday night (7-18-09) at around 7 we went to the beach just to relax and watch the tide come in...without getting sunburned AGAIN! Yea apparently no one believes in the use of sunscreen anymore..Or we just never learn! Anyways...my mom was being all paranoid about me getting my clothes wet, and here I was like whatever it's not like we're doing anything special..and then all of the sudden she's in this major rush to get off the beach. I'm clueless right..so I just go along with it not thinking anything of it!
Well 7:20 we arrive at Solana Beach, the sun is setting and its beautiful..It was quite a trek down the long stairway and we all kind of stopped to look out at the ocean as I turned to go down the second step I see a very familiar person sitting with their back turned on the last step..Boy was I excitedd! I went running down the 2nd set of stairs going "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERe?!" I was relieved when he turned around confirming that it really was Brandon, Plus I had missed him like CRAZY!
He handed me a note that referred to our conversation earlier in the day..it said " You know how I said I only loved you 96.78%? Well take ten steps and see how much my love grew. Ten steps later I pulled a bottle out of the sand that again gave me a percentage, and again said his love for me was growing....The final bottle led me to a blanket where I imagined we would sit to watch the sunset together. But Brandon had other plans! He's so unpredictable...but always surprising?!idk. WEll he pulled up the blanket and a box laid underneath, immediately i began shaking uncontrollably.

After a bit of a struggle I finally got the box opened...and I saw the ring and was just in shock...He got on his knee and asked me and in his words"I attacked him"...I like to say it was just a huge hug...& of course I said yes!!!!! who wouldnt?!

WHAT CAN I SAY??! I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING!
*credit to my mom for getting some great pics and helping pull this off- you didnt give it a way!* I Love you!

MMMMMM;) Baseball Games && Ice Cream.

Perfect combo righttt?
and you know what made the night even better.....
I was with BRANDONNNNNN! yess I know it was just amazing even though the Dbacks lost..We weren't too surprised anyway! GO FIGURE.

But the best part of the night...
The Dessert....MMMMMMmmmmMM Delicious! We went to Nielsens and had lots of fun joking around and making faces as you can seee here

My Birthday

So I knew for my birthday this year that I'd most likely be with Brandon and that he would come up with something good! He always does, I just was completely clueless to what it might be.

IT was a huge surprise and I didnt know what was coming.. I kinda liked the idea of that and was hoping no one would give it away, but sure enough LeAnn called me on Thursday, We always call eachother randomly so it was nothing out of the ordinary. She asked if i had a minute and then proceeded to tell me how she went in Brandon's room and found tickets to Cavalia sitting on his bed. She started to tell me all about it and how exciting it would be and how much she wished she could go..while I'm on the other end of the phone with this worried look on my face going..GREATTTT. How the heck am I gonna act surprised about this.? But I made it my goal to make sure Brandon didnt find out I knew, so he could feel like he completely surprised me like I knew he wanted to.



Well the next night rolls around..I'm all set to go to Cavalia and Brandon finally shows up an hour after he told me he would, and still plans on dinner. I'm freaking out but I can't say anything.. I just knew we were gonna be late and I didnt want $200 tickets to some horse show going to waste. haha



But I sit at dinner acting completely oblivious to the entire thing! I thought I did pretty good. WEll finally, 7:45 we leave the restaurant in Queen Creek and have to drive to Phoenix...in 15 mins! ya rightttt.

Well two Camera flashes later on the freeway and driving wayyy too fast.. we make it to the exit in pretty good time, go to turn off of the freeway and Brandon has me pull an envelope out of the middle console that says" may all your dreams come true tonight"...I pull out to tickets to "CAVALIA" and dont even bother to read them but act like I am while still trying to figure out what to say. ha how funny. WEll he turns on the light and finally I see that the tickets say Rascal Flatts..







Lets just say they got me good! I've never been so surprised in my life.! I had been dying to go since I found out but the tickets had been sold out. The night was absolutely amazing..and I was convinced even more that I have the most PERFECT
boyfriend EVERRRR!



Not to mention the beautiful ring he had me pull out from under the seat later that night, that is his promise to me for the future..whoooooo, what a night!!!

TiMe To CaTcH Up..

Its been a few months, and I haven't posted anything but so much has happened. It's funny, the more you have to tell the less time you have to tell it..I guess it always works that way. Most of my life isn't a secret. Brandon and I tried keeping things on the DL, not wanting to deal with all the questions we expected to have coming our way when people found out, but now everything about him and everything that's happened to me since I met him has been nothing but a blessing to me. He's the boyfriend, the best friend, pretty much everything. And.....I couldn't think of having things any other way.



Since Bran got home, I'd say we've pretty much been together every single day....At least once, I think its safe to say we're pathetic when it comes to how much we miss eachother but I guess thats what LOVE is. Hmm..

Well among the fun things we did was a lil surprise hike he planned one night. It didnt turn out like he wanted...The cave he was trying to take me to was now blocked off..but i thought it was amazing anyway, the view was beautiful, we got some cute pictures and as always, we shared some good laughs throughout the night.

Okay so I guess now that life is a little brighter, I'll start this..I wish I could've had this before there's so many memories and so much I wish I could share with everyone, but I know that they're things I'll never forget and I guess that's what's important.

My life has changed so much, in every way possible some for the good, and other things not so good but I've realized that you learn from every experience and every trial can only make you stronger. But I also realized that being stronger doesn't mean you'll never cry yourself to sleep or have a bad day, it just means you learn to go on and face what comes your way. Just when I begin to think the tears have stopped, I lose it out of nowhere, when will that stop?! probably NEVER but I know that God only gives us the struggles we can handle.

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you're my guardian angel now; rip lo lo♥
ill see you again someday<33

Lorin Merkley, I'd give anything to have just one more day, one more chance to hold your hand, see you smile, or hear you laugh or get one more of those kisses on my cheek. I don't know exactly why such an amazing person came into my life, or why we met at the time we did. I may never know, but I do know that I've learned more from Lor than I've learned from anyone else and that he is without doubt the strongest and most determined person I know. I'll never forget the moments I've spent with him or the kind of person he was. It's been quite the roller coaster ride, lots of hope but many disappointments. Everything happened so fast, no warnings and no guarantees, just prayer and hoping for the best but There comes a point in your life when miracles only go so far, and you just can't fight what's meant to be any longer. Reality hits hard, It's then that you look to the past and are greatful for every day and every moment in your life, and what it meant to you. Life isn't easy, everyone endures a different battle, so be nice to everyone you meet you never know what they're going through.! I love you LO, thank you for everything. You're amazing & I can honestly say that you are the only person who I know would never break my heart. Thanks for letting me be a part of your life and for the experience its been, it wasn't easy but I'll never regret it. tell everyone how you feel, and hold them close, let those you LOVE know that you LOVE them, because you never know when that chance will be taken away.