Why Am I Still Awake?!

Alright, I'm a slacker.
Life is just so busy right now, or at least it seems that way!
I feel like everything is "GO, GO, GO!!!" all the time, yet it seems I can't ever get all of the things done that I need to! What the heck..

The one thing I get to do every day that is the most important thing anyway is be a MOM to the best little boys anyone could ask for. They seriously are my EVERYTHING and I can't look at them without smiling. I was driving the other day, just thinking and realized how boring life would be without those two little crazy kids, I love them so much.

I finally got everything going with photography and I am hoping that over the next year or so I can create a business from the hobby I love, it would be so nice to have the extra money while doing something I love! I have wanted to do this for so long so as of right now I am just trying not to get discouraged by all of the amazing pictures I see from more than amazing photographers, I just have to keep telling myself that I can only learn if I am taking photos, and everyone started somewhere! Here are a few recent photos I've taken: (Yay for my sister who is engaged to be married May 5th, 2012--Soon to be Mr. & Mrs. Smith..) (Lil Mr. Beck--2 1/2 months..I messed up and put the watermark on these)

I have been taking temple prep classes, for the second time. At first I really questioned why I had to take the classes twice but of course I didn't say anything and I went ahead and went. It didn't take long for me to love them..I think within the first few minutes I realized that I really needed it and that it was all meant to be. I feel like I learned so much more the second time around and that it really was a blessing. I can't wait to be able to go to the temple and partake of all the blessings that are offered there! I am so excited! :)

Aside from taking the temple prep classes, being a mom and all that it requires, and starting the whole photog thing, I also started school! I was so excited to get back into things and get back on track. I was nearly two years ahead of everyone my age because of the hard work I had put into school right after graduation. I never really allowed myself to take a break and really pushed myself..Then I had to take two semesters off, at different times, one because I was due with Tate the day it started and one because I was due with Beckham shortly after it started. That was hard for me but I am so glad I made the choice to take that time off because I know now all of the things I would've missed out on with my boys!

March 12th I celebrated my 20th birthday. Ahhh. I seriously had two kids before I turned 20. Even I think it's crazy. It's really weird for me..I never thought I would be where I am today but I feel like this is where my life is supposed to be at this point. I have been blessed with so much thus far that I can't imagine what the years to come will bring to my life. I can't imagine it being any better. For the record...I don't feel like I've missed out on anything, yea I am young and I have two kids but they are the best two things in my life..honestly.

Beckham is becoming a happier baby, I don't know if it's us learning or him growing out of a phase. When he was born the doctor handed him to me and I couldn't get him to calm down and honestly there's still moments like that. With Tate everything was so easy and I think it makes it harder but I have so much more patience than I used to. I think the hardest part is just not knowing what to do, I want him to be happy and I don't always know how to make that happen. Yet there are literally times that he just smiles from ear to ear continuously. I love those moments, I guess the hard times make those times even better.He is so strong and holds his head up so good, and rolls over everytime I put him down for some tummy time. He already drinks 6 ounce bottles like it's nothing and is becoming quite the lil chubby guy--ILOVEIT. He is already 2 1/2 months so I know I need to cherish every moment.





Tate is also becoming an amazing big brother. At first he wasn't sure what to think about his lil brother stealing a little bit of his thunder but he's slowly realizing that he is still very loved and still gets TOO MUCH attention. The other day he ran from the shower to Beckham and says "BROTHHERRRRR!!!" He is such a big helper not only with his brother but with cleaning up, getting me things & doing my makeup;). He is a little goof so it's hard not to want to watch every little thing that he does. I can't look at him without laughing...He'll look back at you with his cute lil "ISEEEYOU", and yes it is said as if it's one word. He also walks around the house "1,2,3 and A,B,C", he is so smart. He makes me proud to be his mommy. I love hearing him say things that I didn't even know he knew..Like when I dropped a little bit of my shampoo in the shower and he says, "purple"..yep it's purple and he absolutely loves dogs and horses..He has the wrong mommy for that! But he might just be lucky someday since I love him so much. He loves singing the songs he has learned in nursery and will fill in words as I sing. Lately he has cuddled with me and fallen asleep in my arms as I sing the songs he tells me to sing "Popcorn", "Elmo" and "E,I,E,I,O"& he loves doing the actions for Wheels on the Bus! My favorite is probably when he squeals "What is it?" if he sees something cool..or when he yells out "MOTE...?" when he wants to change the channel. He's also on at least the 4th level of Angry Birds and can point out and say several of his body parts!




Life just would not be the same.