Okay so I guess now that life is a little brighter, I'll start this..I wish I could've had this before there's so many memories and so much I wish I could share with everyone, but I know that they're things I'll never forget and I guess that's what's important.

My life has changed so much, in every way possible some for the good, and other things not so good but I've realized that you learn from every experience and every trial can only make you stronger. But I also realized that being stronger doesn't mean you'll never cry yourself to sleep or have a bad day, it just means you learn to go on and face what comes your way. Just when I begin to think the tears have stopped, I lose it out of nowhere, when will that stop?! probably NEVER but I know that God only gives us the struggles we can handle.

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you're my guardian angel now; rip lo lo♥
ill see you again someday<33

Lorin Merkley, I'd give anything to have just one more day, one more chance to hold your hand, see you smile, or hear you laugh or get one more of those kisses on my cheek. I don't know exactly why such an amazing person came into my life, or why we met at the time we did. I may never know, but I do know that I've learned more from Lor than I've learned from anyone else and that he is without doubt the strongest and most determined person I know. I'll never forget the moments I've spent with him or the kind of person he was. It's been quite the roller coaster ride, lots of hope but many disappointments. Everything happened so fast, no warnings and no guarantees, just prayer and hoping for the best but There comes a point in your life when miracles only go so far, and you just can't fight what's meant to be any longer. Reality hits hard, It's then that you look to the past and are greatful for every day and every moment in your life, and what it meant to you. Life isn't easy, everyone endures a different battle, so be nice to everyone you meet you never know what they're going through.! I love you LO, thank you for everything. You're amazing & I can honestly say that you are the only person who I know would never break my heart. Thanks for letting me be a part of your life and for the experience its been, it wasn't easy but I'll never regret it. tell everyone how you feel, and hold them close, let those you LOVE know that you LOVE them, because you never know when that chance will be taken away.